Cataclysm Of Desperation

Awaiting for an answer, the time is running out as planned. Desperation takes place and I cannot go any alternative way. My insides is crying "save me now!". I do not want any other chances except for this. Please give me the chance to prove myself. You only have my word, I want to give you more but I can't. As that is what I can only provide you with. The answer lies within today. Tomorrow will be the start of new day from the answer provided today. Path changes from one simple answer. One simple sentence. One simple word. The turn of acceptable or unacceptable consequences. Which is the fact that I have to live with. The story for this lies unknown. For tomorrow, for the future, only being able to give myself the courage to move on. Is the plan in my own life. As for today, it ends here. Unknowing the answer, still standing on the crossroads. Tomorrow I'll be walking on either one of the path which either I have stared for a long time or the one which I have never even imagine myself entering before. Either one, I will need the support to do so. An early thank you before I start my journey.

Flooding Heart

The uncontrollable feelings of joy. The drop of the tears which fills with happiness. The never ending current of water flowing in my heart. The words, which I was never expecting for. One that eventually, made me smile. A smile that came from so very deep inside of my heart. A smile, so sincere that it happens once in a lifetime. You are, will and always be, my only Angel. My heart have only a place for one. And as you fill the place of emptiness in my heart. All my desire stops, and no one else can replace you. I will only want to hold you in my arms. As I lift my head up to look to the stars in the sky at night. Wishing upon them, that you will always be mine. And closing my eyes every night to wait for the dawn to come. So my wish can come true as days go by. I only have you in my mind. Your scent, the look of your eyes and your kiss. Never I wished for something so in my life. My heart only wishes that God somehow made us, together and forever. No matter how many life we spent in this world. No matter as what we live as.

The Unseen

And there it is, New Year's Day would be one of the best day because of the never ending wishes you receive. But somehow, I was attacked by the unseen which eventually turns my mood the other way round. I wish that this will not last long as I have plans coming soon and this eventually slows down firstly, my Operating System. Followed by the Processor. So it's pretty screwed up and all I can do is just to take good care of myself so that I will not be ruled by the unseen enemies. So let's prepare for an unexpected war and win this battle! To arms my brothers!

For The Better

I have been looking at myself lately and the feeling of desperation has overcome me. I am currently looking for any ways to unlock this door which is in my way and keys have been found. But there are too many sets of them and too many doors. Which one will I take? Which one will provide me with what I need? I believe in myself more than nothing else currently. So giving a final look the sky and making my decision. I've chosen it and hope that I will not regret. So if I fall, give me your hand and pull me back up. If I succeed, I'd want to bring you along with me so walk together with me to the end. As I treasure this as much as the words couldn't describe it. So I'm giving you my hand and asking you now, " May I? "

The Way I See It

I have recited this poem, just for you.

The very same day that I gave them to you.

These words came to my mind.

For this is the way I see it.

But in order to do so.

Keep the flowers forever.

No matter what happens.

Then you'll understand.

My dear,

As each of the petal falls and wither,

My love for you grows ever deeper,

By the time the last petal falls,

I love you with my all.

Gilbert