Proximity Of A Total Loss

Lying still, peacefully letting the wind slip through my fingers. A sudden shock of awareness gotten me ready to attack an oncoming enemy. The enemy which lies still for a long time, that has been waiting for it's time to attack. Eventually my instinct was right. As it approaches, I raised my stinger. Readily, facing anything that comes my way. Getting into a defensive posture. Apparently I am able to win this battle. But will I still be ready for the next coming ones? Will I be able to arm myself and prepare for battle again if I do not feed? Standing up high and facing the sky. Giving my thanks to God which has prepared me for this battle. Praying that I will always be ready and eventually gotten me to victory. But the moment of ego has pulled me into a very deep black hole. Now I stand stranded. Looking for a way out and trying to release myself again. The mistakes that I've learnt in life cost more valuable than anything in this earth could offer. But that loss could have been worse if I had not prepared myself. A loss which I am still able to handle. Now I'm picking up the pace again. And never shall I fall again. To keep my word and promise. Now, I am gradually stronger than before.